I want you to understand

She won't get close

She pushes them away

And before she couldn't figure out why

It was habit and nature

But she couldn't understand

Why the habit was established

In the first place

And she now realizes,

She doesn't want to hurt them

The way she's been hurt

She doesn't want to be the one

Who leaves

And leaves nothing behind

But broken hearts

And shattered minds

Because she's been on the receiving end

She knows what it's like

To have the people you're closest to

Just up and run

To bolt as far away as they can

And never look back

So she doesn't let them close

She pushes them away

Because she doesn't want

To be the source of so much pain