White Christmas

I didn't think I'd see a white Christmas for a while. The last one I had was when I was four. Living in Georgia, this is a big fat slice of AWESOMENESS. And I managed to convince my parental units to let me go run around in the snow and take pictures. While I was in only pj pants and a sweatshirt....and converse. :)

Look at my pretty picture. Enjoy :P

The Best Present

So, I know is Christmas is about celebrating the incarnation of Jesus, but to me it's also about spending time with my family. They argue, they yell, they're obnoxious and stubborn, but I love them. And Christmas is the one time of year we all come together and spend time with each other. This year was especially special (that's really fun to say aloud) because my dad didn't have to work. And I got a lot of really cool presents this year (Kindle, CAKE tickets, and a few others). But my favorite present this was, by far, spending time with my family where no one argued. It wasn't intentional. They didn't pretend to get along for my sake. They genuinely got along. And it was one of the best gifts I've recieved, ever. I just thought I'd share.

So, go forth and celebrate the incarnation of Jesus, and a wonderfully merry Christmas to you and yours. :)

Those Little Creatures

When I think of emotions, I think of little creatures. Each with its own appearance. Soft, fluffy, pink. Hard, cold, black. Bleak, dark, empty. Firey hot, bright as can be, dangerous. And then, your mind is like a house, styled to your personality. I've always pictured mine as one of those sleek, clean-lined, modern exterior houses. Then you walk in, and it's still modern, but there are crazy colors and shapes everywhere, there's beautiful art, and music is blasting. Typically, the emotions get to live in your mind, a few at a time at a time. And the emotions move stuff arond, they add stuff, they change the house a little. Some of them completely trash it, but it always gets cleaned back up. The house is never arranged the same way though. Each time something happens, it changes the house a little bit. I might just be tilting a picture frame, or scooting a chair over a little bit, changing the tv channel or switching cds in a stereo. But it's never the same, because your mind adapts. You adapt. I think that's something we all have to learn to do.

Clarity

I've recently learned that people will do some pretty crazy things to be able to feel. To feel the touch of a loved one, or the snow crunching under your feet, or even just the feel of your own skin. But it seems to me that people will do even crazier things to feel emotions. Nobody wants to go through life feeling nothing or not knowing how they feel. It can make you go crazy. To feel a thousand things at once, yet still feel nothing at all. All you want is a little clarity, to make your mind stop spinning long enough to be able to sort through what's going on. And then, when you can't feel anything, you just want to be able to know that you're still there. It's like one of my favorite songs says, "When everything feels like the movies, yea you bleed just to know you're alive. And I don't want the world to see me, cause I dont think that they'd understand." Not everybody chooses the same thing. Some people do drugs, some people cut, some people just deal on their own. Everybody has to choose their own poison, you know? Whatever it happens to be that works for them. So what's yours?

Another Random Revelation

I don't need my life to be just like someone else's. I don't need it to be just like the movies or fairy tales. It's my life, and I'll make it what I want it to be. And right now, it's pretty damn good.

Found

I've been lost in a pit of darkness
But now I'm ready to see the light,
I'm ready to find my way back home
Into the arms of those who love me.

Your clock starts ticking the day you're born
And that makes life a race against time
So live life to the fullest, and don't look back
Just keep moving on, moving forward
That's all any of us can really do

Tips for Bad Days:

1. Think of everything that happened that day, and pick one thing that happened that was better than everything else.
2. Talk to someone you love.
3. Listen to your favorite song.
4. Watch your favorite movie.
5. Eat your favorite snack.
6. Do something that makes you happy.
7. Try to turn the day around. Do everything in your power to make even just a little bit better.

Random

So, it's been a rough few weeks...or maybe it's been a month (I stopped keeping count after a while). But I've come to realize through this month that, you've always got someone you can count on. Whether it's your friends, your family, the love of your life, or some random person who sees you and says, "Hey, don't worry. Whatever it is, it'll work out." There's always someone there for you. You may not always know it, but that's because you have to admit you want the help for it to work. You have to let people in and trust them completely, with your whole heart. And if they break that trust, it's their loss. You have to learn to move on. You have to adapt. You have to laugh. You have to love. You have to live. You have to hope. And you absolutely have to trust. Maybe not everybody, but at least the people you want to keep around. It may take a lot of work, it may be excruciatingly painful to break through all the walls you've built, but it's not someone else's job to break through your walls. You have to do it yourself, and you have to want to do it. You have to be willing. You have to let others in. Because they're there. They're just waiting for you to show them that you're ready.